Trouble in My Way

Many times we are our own enemy. We always question ourselves with, “Am I good enough”, “Am I worth it”, or “Why me”. These past 2 years have been very tiresome for me. From going through a divorce, to sending my son with his father to live, changing positions at work, and having my step father pass away. It has all been tough, a challenge. I never thought that I would go through so many changes in such a short period of time. I lost myself. I couldn’t focus and I became very pessimistic about life. I would sit and think to myself that the reason why I was getting a divorce was because I wasn’t a good enough wife. Or since I sent my son to live with his father, I must be a horrible mother. It was a lot of weight to carry on my shoulders and it drove me into depression. I stopped going to school, being physically active, and didn’t put much effort into work. I also stopped speaking to the ones very dear and close to me and I began to find negative pass times as an outlet. It wasn’t until 2 months ago when I decided that nothing is going to change for me unless I begin to change. I had to realize that with everything that was going on in my life, life is still going on. I have to be positive for my son, my subordinates/co-workers, and for myself. Things are always going to happen that will challenge you, things that will put you to the test beyond belief. It is up to you with how you will tackle everything. If you face things in your life that you feel like you can’t handle on your own, please reach out to people before you find yourself in a dark place. People that are close to you will help you find a way to move through your problems. Realize Queen that you are beautiful… You are strong…. You are worth so much more than you think.

​-Queen Chanel ​
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