From a Queen, to a Queen:

From a Queen, To a Queen:
13 years…It’s been a while since I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about you and missing you so much that my stomach cramped.  
13 years…I would scold myself saying you are a grown woman, toughen up and put on your “everything is ok” face, for your husband, for your children, for your family, for your friends, for your co-workers…for yourself? Ha, not yet, but soon.
13 years…I am still hurting mom, but I am learning that it is ok to feel this way.  You taught me to be strong, maybe too strong at times.  My strength has allowed me to build walls that kept others out or maybe they were to keep the real me in?  It scares me but the wall is crumbling, slowly.
13 years…I am allowing myself to be one of the women I aspire to help, aspire to mentor, and aspire to love.  I am learning to love myself by loving others.  You taught me that nothing in life is free…except love.  You taught me that love transcends space and time.  You taught me that love does not require physical proximity.  But that love does need love to manifest and grow.
After 13 years I have learned to love me.  I miss you and I thank you for the strength you give me every day.  I know you are with me, I see you in my children…your joy, your smile, your love.  You are my inspiration to be an inspiration.  I am Inspired by a Queen.

Love,
Queen P