It's ok to be Vulnerable.

Dear Diary, 

Sometimes it’s hard for me to truly share how I’m feeling. I’m so use to keeping my emotions bottled up inside until I erupt like a volcano. It started to reflect in my relationship with God and I was operating as an abandoned orphan and treating Him like He would leave me like everyone else. But then He reminded me in 1 Peter 5:7 to “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” I now realize that God cares for me so there should be no reason I can’t come to Him and share what’s on my heart. Only way I can truly be open to Him is if I stop seeing Him through the lens of those who mishandled my vulnerability. He is NOT them!!! I don’t have to have this wall up all the time and be anxious. I believe there are people that He will divinely connect me with that truly have my best interest. 

Prayer: So Father right now, deal with my heart. Deal with my rejection from people and posture me to be able to be vulnerable again. I will no longer subscribe to this cycle of brokenness. In Jesus name, AMEN.

- Queen Vency L. Haynes